Before it gets better

Fall Out Boy couldn't have sung it better in one of their songs that 

"Sometimes before it gets better, the darkness gets bigger."

Med school means the world to me and it's unusual that I am having one of these episodes which I think I am losing heart in the things that I do. 

Probably I am just overwhelmed after my year long vacation slash hiatus from participating in reality? I have waited so long for this and here I am lost inside my head. 

There are times when I just can't remember why I started. There are times when the whole world just gets blurry and I can't seem to see the point of what I am doing with my life. 

We all need a little reminder (or two) that it's all about perspective. Sometimes we think that it's us against the world but in reality it is actually just us waging a war with ourselves. 

That's when divine intervention comes to play. I can't make it through without the Big Guy up there. I know You have lead me to this and I know You're holding my hand through this. Thank you.